On a silent sea

Trying to find my place in the world.

Fish and Chips

My husband is a manager at a seafood restaurant. He called me around 6pm and asked that my son and I come in for dinner. He just wanted to see his boy.

It’s hard for me not to feel guilty sometimes for being a stay-at-home-mom. My husband works long, hard hours at a job that he really doesn’t like. Though this is the decision that we felt was right for our family, it still hurts my heart when I see the discouragement in his face from a hard day. Meanwhile, I get to love and hug on my son all day. Granted, I also do all the bookkeeping, laundry, cleaning, and about 90% of the cooking…but that’s the role I’ve chosen as a wife and mother. Still, sometimes it just doesn’t seem fair. I wish it wasn’t so expensive to live…just to simply live. Maybe things will change soon.

June 1, 2009 - Posted by meorthethoughtofme | me | , , , | 4 Comments

4 Comments »

  1. i know what you mean. i often feel badly that i am so fortunate to spend my days with our baby and my partner works so hard at a job that is not his ideal…and he does it for us, really.

    i’m so thankful, but wish that our time did not have to be prioritized by a paycheck.

    Comment by Katie Klann | June 3, 2009 | Reply

    • Exactly.

      Comment by meorthethoughtofme | June 4, 2009 | Reply

  2. My husband and I are trying to plan on when to have our first child, and it’s frustrating! I so badly want to be a stay-at-home mom, but I don’t think it’ll be possible for us to survive on his paycheck. :(

    Comment by Kristina | June 7, 2009 | Reply

    • it’s definitely something to plan for. i always thought i would be a work-out-home-mom and then the last trimester i was like, ‘oh my gosh, i can’t leave my kid!’. thankfully my husband was really supportive and i know we really appreciate how my family benefits from me staying at home. however, since we didn’t really plan for it financially, things are little tougher than i’d like them to be.

      good luck and i hope you and your husband are able to start that family soon!

      Comment by meorthethoughtofme | June 9, 2009 | Reply


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